Please note: This isn’t a series that I’m doing to brag about how privileged I am, how much stuff I have or to make others feel bad. Some have expressed interest in me documenting the process of me setting up my nursery/playroom and I figured here would be a great place to do so.
So we’ve made it, friends. I started the process of documenting this whole experience on July 14th of 2019 and almost a year later, I’m finished. I learned a lot about myself along the way through this process as cliche as it sounds and I think it’s made me grow not only as a little but as a whole damn person. If you’ve been with me from the beginning of this process, thank you. If you’re a new friend and this is either your first time on my blog or haven’t read the other entries in The Nursery Files, I suggest you do so. You can check them all out here. While this part of the series is coming to a close, for now, I still have a lot of information and things to share about nurseries and setting them up and all that so I’m looking forward to sharing those thoughts with you all as well.
So here we go!
First, here we have the before and after of what the walls looked when I picked its color. Picking my wall color was pretty hard, I’m not going to lie. I struggled with a lot of like doubt if I was picking the right one and if it was too light or even too dark. I also felt like picking this color along with the things I like would make it harder for me to convince others that I’m nonbinary but I got that thought out of my head quickly as that’s a them problem and not a me one because I know who I am.
The color reminds me of the purple Molicares, which is pretty funny given that they were the first diaper I tried. At the end of the day, I’m really happy with the color I picked. It’s calming and that’s what I was going for with this room given that it’s my space to unwind and be happy.
Then we have the door to my nursery. I wanted to buy a proper sign for the door but I couldn’t settle on one that I loved and then one day at a craft store, I saw the chalkboard and it was like lightning struck. This allows me to be able to post messages on there and change it as I want. I’ve settled on “Never Grow Up” as I found it fitting for the nursery. The chalkboard was plain wood and Daddy painted it a similar purple to my nursery’s walls and then added some iridescent glitter glaze over it to make it pop a bit more.
Yeah, so I know. That is…..bad. It looked a little less awful when the crib wasn’t in the room because the boxes had room to exist and weren’t totally piled up to the ceiling. Going through the boxes was a very hard part of the process, especially as I had to make some really hard choices as to what I wanted to keep and what I wanted to find new homes for. A lot of the things that I had, I’ve had since I started to explore my little side but, quite honestly, I grew out of. So it was nice to be able to find new homes for things so that they can hopefully be appreciated. Even to this day I’m still making cuts to my little stuff and I don’t think I’ll ever really stop, especially as we’re always growing and changing and might not love something as much as we did at one point. This was also the point where I realized just how much My Little Pony; Friendship is Magic and owl related things I had as that was suppose to be my original theme for my nursery instead of it being a full representation of me.
It’s amazing what a year can bring, right? Same spot, almost a year later and it looks like an entirely different room. You can actually see the floor! This is a basic overview of the nursery, there’s the cube storage, changing table, Ziggy, stuffie shelves, stuffie bins, and the crib.
I welcome you to my nursery. Let’s continue to look up close at the other changes that were made to the room!
This panda picture was one of the first piece I got for the nursery. I picked it up on one of my first visits to meet Daddy’s family and I just fell in love with it.
The changing table was one of the pieces that received a pretty drastic makeover. When I picked it up with my friend, Honey, it was disgusting. It smelt of stale cigarettes, had holes, and desperately needed a cleaning. However, beggars can’t be choosers and with a little DIY love, it’s now a super cute space to get your diaper changed, use as a table for arts and crafts, or sit on! I’ve gone back and forth if I really wanted to keep it out as it does take up a lot of space and forced me to change the whole layout of the room when I was almost done with it. But it does add valuable seating, which is what my room needs. Also, after having my diaper changed on it a few times it definitely has made me feel super baby and smol.
Big Ass Panda (BAP) is currently the guardian of the changing table with Buns hiding behind him for protection. My Sanrio Buildabears, one of my small Monster High plushes, and a macron kitty stuffie are sitting on it to add some cuteness to it too. Let’s talk about the fabric for the changing table for a second. I was really unsure as to what I wanted and walked around the fabric store for a while until I saw this beautiful pastel galaxy-y print with subtle white stars on it. It just made my heart flutter and I knew I needed it. I found some backup fabric just in case this one was sold out when I came back for it but I had the best feeling about it.
Due to the fabric being like fleece-y and the fact that this space is going to be used by others, I knew I needed a plastic covering so I ordered mine from a massage table supply site. It can easily be wiped down after use or if someone wants to you can put down a changing pad too. The blanket that is laying on the end of the changing table is more for decoration than to act as a pad but could be used if someone is feeling a little shy or cold.
While we’re talking about the changing table, let’s go to the cloud shelves above it!
I got one of the cloud shelves from Target at full price and the other I got off of Marketplace for $10. I like how they’re stacked so it looks like that Baby Hugs & Tugs are floating by. It made sense to me to have powder and lotion on the bottom shelf as well as wipes, which are in the Hello Kitty case! Baby Hugs is protecting the supplies. The top shelf has one of my Care Bear diaper bags, Care Bear baby wipes that my local grocery store sometimes has and Baby Tugs just hanging out.
From there let’s go check out the diaper shelf.
My diaper shelf has seen many different configurations. I’ve been kinda obsessed with how it looks and I’ve tried to make it flow perfectly but that wasn’t making me happy. So I did what felt right and this is what I came up with. It’s a white bookshelf with my Care Bear cubs are on the top and first shelf as they’re babies and it makes sense to have them with the diapers, along with a container I got originally for my pacis but when that didn’t work out it became a lollipop jar. So whoever is getting changed can pick out a diaper and if they’re good a lollipop when they’re all nice and clean! The diapers are sort of organized by type; I have the pink diapers with the pink diapers, the multi-color diapers with the multi-color diapers and so on and so forth. The bin on the bottom has some extra wipes and powder so that I can keep the room stocked up nicely. I’m going to try to have different powders as everyone likes different things but it’ll mostly have my favorite- lavender cornstarch. Oh and my little otter buddy likes to sleep on the diapers when they aren’t on my crib.
If you’ve read this series from the beginning or checked out the link in the beginning of the post, I often reference heart tables. I decided to only use one of them in the nursery and here’s what it looks like now….
I decided on a soft pink for this table though at first, it reminded me more of Pepto; once it dried though, it grew on me! I left the top shelf open so that whoever is in the crib can have an extra place to put things other than the little organizer thing hanging on the bars. I also have a picture a friend of mine drew of me, a rattle-y Jellycat Bunny, and my carousel horse and baby unicorn squishables on it. It’s not a super sturdy table so it isn’t something I’d like lean on or something but it’s handy for my glasses.
Behind it, I have more stuffie storage in the form of a unicorn bean bag chair. I saw this idea on Mindlessly Diapered’s nursery tour on her Youtube channel and I knew I needed one. Again, I have a seating issue in my room and the bean bag stuffie bin helps with that. I can also fit a lot of my stuffies in there and they stay nice and safe even with sitting on it. Stardust, my big pink unicorn, is also resting on it for now. You can also see my curtains! I couldn’t find any I liked in stores so I had to check online and found these super cute star ones! I was scared that the grey would be too dark but I was very pleasantly surprised by how it’s the perfect shade! They also work really well to keep out light when I’m napping in the crib!
I know a lot of you are waiting for the crib photos but I’m going to make you wait a little bit longer, haha. Onto some of my bookshelves!
I found this first white bookshelf for $25 at a thrift store and it’s one of my favorite finds with how perfect it is. I didn’t have to do anything to fix it up and I’m really happy about that. Regardless, here’s the before & after photo of it!
This was taken early on in the process of setting the room up. At this point the crib was being used for stuffie storage and the closet wasn’t even close to being finished yet.
This shelf has some of my favorite things on it. At the top we have some rattle cubes, a Hello Kitty rattle, some of my My Little Pony figures, my stuffie rattle from Kinky Stuffies, rattle unicorn, another Hello Kitty (this time wearing one of my tiaras), a play cube, some Kumas, and my Num Nom waffle who looks like they’re cumming. That waffle was given to me by Honey at our last event we were able to have in public for the MD group. I couldn’t win one so I was going to buy one online but she gave me hers! The second shelf has some other super cute things like some blocks, a rainbow teether, vintage phone toy, Strawberry Shortcake, and a rubber duck. Moving down to the third shelf, there’s loads more My Little Ponies, some blocks and stacker toys, a needlepoint picture a friend made for me, and one of those bead maze things. The bottom shelf has two more rubber ducks named Mia Duckmopolis Princess of Ducknovia, and Lady Quack Quack. I also have a Furby, a rainbow and cloud themed bead maze, my Hello Kitty tea set, my coloring bin, an interactive panda bank, and my cat piano. The shelves kinda have a theme of going from pastel to primary and then back to pastel. Another Kuma and my large stacker toy guard the shelf while my ring light sits in the corner.
Above that bookshelf sits a stuffie net. I was very apprehensive about putting one up as I’ve never had good experiences with them. But I’m really liking how my queer family of build a bears sits in the net. While they aren’t marketed as LGBTQ+ stuffies by BAB, I’ve always viewed them that way and I’ve collected just about all of the ones that have come out in the last 6 years. There are some older ones I want to get my hands on too that are rainbow-themed and one even has the bi-flag colors..
Next comes the closet, which is consistently being worked on. Above the closet sits my favorite masks. I view them as the keepers of the other monsters and they act as protectors…unless prompted otherwise. 😉 They don’t have names though. Playing with fear is a big part of my kink so it felt only natural to have them on display as they’re big parts of who I am.
My plan is to rotate out clothes so it’s not always the same stuff in there. I also put some of my more little vanilla clothes in there too so it’s all in one spot. Right now there’s a lot of my favorite Onesies Downunder onesies, some stuff from Lil Kink Boutique, and a few other pieces I’ve found randomly along my way. On the top shelf, which isn’t pictured, I have bins of toys, other hair accessories, paci clips, mats, play rugs, and stuffies.
Below the clothes, I have my bloomer, plastic pants, and tutu sterlite bin and next to that I have my sippy cup & bottle bins. My reasoning for putting my cups and bottles in a sterilite type of thing is that if I ever get sick, I can just put the drawers in the dishwasher to clean them.
The next area has the shelf that has my paci & teether bin, my Puffalump lamp, paci clip stand, and books. I found this smaller white bookshelf with a scalloped top on Marketplace for $10 and it needed some work to keep the bottom trim from coming off when bumped.
This shelf has my pacis and teethers in the little panda bin, some of my Puffalumps, and my books on the bottom shelf. On top, there’s my Puffalump lamp, some more Puffalumps, a little bear I picked up from a consignment shop, and my paci clip stand, which Daddy made for me.
My bow holder has some of my favorite bows on it as well as some of my necklaces and the Rainbow Flag and Nonbinary Flag! I wanted to display my big flags but I ran out room to do so and decided on the smaller ones and I think they fit nicely there. I do want to get one of the Progress Pride Flags to put there too once I can find one in stock.
The paci clip stand was based on a necklace organizer I found at a thrift store. It was a long pole with some pegs coming out of it but when I tried to put some of my paci clips on it, they dragged on the base of the stand as it was too short. So Daddy and I took the base of the necklace stand, took a dowel rod from another project I was working on, and then took two of the pegs off of the original necklace stand and created our own.
And here’s the after. It’s a good height and even my longest paci clips don’t drag. it’s painted a smokey purple with some silver glitter. The glitter isn’t as smooth as I expected but I like the texture it gives the stand.
I got this panda name sign made at the local fair last year and I even have a Care Bear version too, which is what most people on Insta voted for me to have on display. However, the Care Bears that made up the design within my name looked like the confederate flag and I’m not about that. Plus, I feel that pandas aren’t as represented in my room despite being a panda and all. 😛 I love how playful they are and while the dark green doesn’t really go with the rest of my room, it’s just a small accent piece.
I love backpacks and bags and I’m so glad I have a place to show some of my favorites. I originally only had one peg board but it was hard to pick a few to display so I went and got another one. They’re painted a mint green and I feel like it works well with the overall color theme of my room.
The top row has my Hello Kitty plush bag and my Skip Hop bags; one is a panda, the other is a unicorn, then an owl, and a narwhal! The bottom one has my Skelanimals bag, another panda backpack, a diaper bag, my strawberry bag, and my Wish Bear bag! Next to it is a long mirror with a holographic trim that I was going to mount on the back of my door but I like that I can move it where I want to.
Are you having fun? We’re almost done, I swear!
Some of my favorite stuffies sit high above the cube storage. The top shelf has some Buildabears, JellyCats, Duffy & Friends, and Furry Bones. I like how the shelf represents a good chunk of who I am: cute & creepy. The bottom shelf has some of my Care Bears, which I’ve already ran out of room on!
I’m really happy with my cube storage units and I love how organized things are. I also have the option to add more bins should I need them but I really like how my empty spaces have been decorated. The bins hold various little and pet play related stuff! The light pink bin has rattles, the purple bin has some random little toys, the yellow bin has my pet play stuff, the teal bin has bibs, changing pads, bottle cozies, and things like that, the olive green bin has some of my sex toys, and the coral bin has some of my lovey blankets!
Here’s a closer look!
Here I have my pop art inspired baby bottle picture that I got a thrift store and lovingly call it my Babby Warhol, a little panda music box, more little pandas, my Bibsy Popple, unicorn speaker/nighlight. Next to that is my unicorn bracelet organizer, a little carousel horse figure I’ve had since I was a kid, and my Care Bear cup with my purple “Rebella” name straw!
The next side has two photos of my cats that are no longer living and one of their urns, a rainbow stacker toy to symbolize the rainbow bridge, a Calico Critters little cat figurine, another nightlight that projects stars on the ceiling, and some pixie dust in a bottle that I made at a little’s event.
My Magic Nursery Pets are some of my favorite vintage toys so they needed a good spot and I have two of them holding favorite rattles of mine. The one on the first shelf is a pink bear and it is holding a rattle in the shape of a baby bottle and next to it is a pink-themed stacker toy and a small little panda stuffie a friend got me! The Magic Nursery Pets on the second shelf are mint green and fuschia bears that are being propped up stacks of Care Bear wipes. The mint green one is holding a circular rattle with a spinning purple hart in the middle.
On the final empty shelf on the first cube storage, I have some of my favorite Disney pieces. I have my Ursula, Maleficent, and Peter Pan crew Tsum-Tsums, my funko Ursula plush and Disney Parks Baby Maleficent plush too! These characters are some of my absolute favorite ones and I feel that they don’t get enough love or representation as the should.
Then there’s my Bowie shelf! I have my lunchbox with his Aladdin Sane album cover on it, two of my favorite Bowie pacis that I had made, some mini-figures, the Halloween Jack one is my favorite, my rubber duck Ziggy Starduck, and Ludo from Labyrinth! The pacis I had made were by LittleSpace BigBaby, which was a really great shop that unfortunately doesn’t exist anymore. The owner made my WWBD and Life On Mars inspired pacis perfectly and they were my go-to for custom pacifiers for the longest time.
Then we have my Monster High dolls and spooky shelf. Admittedly, I didn’t really get into them to the extent of some friends of mine did but the movies are legit! I have Frankie Stein and Clawdeen Wolf sitting up front and Draculaura standing in the back as my doll of hers doesn’t sit. I then have my Winifred Sanderson Funko bank I got last Halloween and my little trick or treat cat plaque.
The final cube has my Tokidokis! I don’t know all of their names other than the Bowie one, obviously, but they’re super cute and I really like how they look and finish out the cube storage.
Ziggy also received a pretty big makeover. Ziggy was stripped down to its original wood base and then completely repainted white.
While my original plan to have the mane and tail be a vibrant reddish-orange didn’t work out how I had planned, I’m really happy with how my pastel backup came out. I’ll continue to try and get the result I want but for now, I really love how V2 of Ziggy looks. It makes me so happy to look at and play on it.
Daddy did the mane and tail and made sure that out of the pink, yellow, mint, and lavender that the mint and lavender were the forefront colors as they’re my favorites. The lightning bolt was done with metallic lavender paint and it pops so much in person. We also have a metallic mint that we might add to the bolt too.
And finally, the crib. When it arrived last year, it had some scuffs and needed a little TLC but was still in such great shape despite me being its third or fourth owner. We tried to get a sample so we could match the paint but it ended up not working out as planned so we picked a new white and just repainted the whole thing.
On it are a lot of my favorite Carebears and other toys. I have a vintage Care Bear mobile that plays “You Are My Sunshine,” a little organizer thing that has pockets for like sippy cups, pacifiers, phones, or really anything you want to put in it. It just makes me so happy to hang out in it and just relax. It’s one of my favorite pieces of my nursery and I’m so grateful to have it. I have other sheets and stuff for it too but right now I’m loving the mint green sheet set. I don’t have a comforter for it, yet, so I have a very pastel and baby-ish Wish Bear soft blanket on it right now.
So we’re at the end of our tour and I thank you all who have read through this long post, haha. I hope you all enjoyed it and again, thank you all for being part of this journey. ❤ This space isn’t just for me, it’s also for the community. I can’t wait until it’s safe enough to have events again so that others can come and play, explore, and be little.